today I sat around my house for a total of 4 hours doing nothing of value. then i ate dinner. then i did nothing further of value until about 9:30. I got home at 3:30. In the midst of my mom's ceaseless questioning of my homework status, I very clearly stated to her that most of the reason I don't do my work is to irritate her. In fact, most of the things I do at all these days is just to irritate someone in my family. Now, I fully realize this is a problem and this is not just a confessional wall, but I am just curious what you guys think. I have been in this "rebellious" state now for about a month. Most obviously, I'm not making babies on the weekends or anything horrible like that, but I think that being obstinate and difficult is just as bad. And what is worse is that I KNOW that I'm doing it, yet I continue in it.
I don't really know where to go with this except just to ask if anyone else faces this, and how do you deal with it.
I know I'm called to live and work as unto the Lord, but how do I do that when I just don't feel like it?